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September 24, 2007
The truth at last.
It has been a long time coming, but last night Burke finally confessed that she DID in fact cheat on me while she was away in Switzerland with Felix. As much as I was responsible for her mental and emotional condition at the time, she still chose to fool around with him, she instigated the encounter, and she chose not to break up with me first. She said that she regretted it after, and that she just wanted to know what it was like to fuck up and regret something. Well, I hope she got her wish.
The fact that it happened at all hurts. But what really gets to me is the fact that she lied to me so many times when I confronted her with it. She lied when I asked while she was there, she lied when she came back, and she continued to lie right up until last night. I know you are all wondering "why the hell do you need to know?" Well, had it been anyone else, I wouldn't. Burke and I split up two months ago. But when it comes to Felix, I have a vested interest, as Burke and I were STILL DATING AT THE TIME!!! I went into therapy because I have issues, but because she made me feel so stupid and paranoid for even suspecting her of cheating, I spent the lion's share of my sessions working on it. Now I come to realize that my instincts were right on, and that she just flat out lied to me. Girls are insane.
I am ok overall. I have to start the healing process all over again now, but I am ok, and now I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I can do so much better. She isn't worth my time, and perhaps she never was. Once again I am so sorry I pushed all of you aside for her. I was stupid, and I want to make it up to all of you. Let me know how I can do this.
Posted by Vilhelm at September 24, 2007 1:12 PM
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No worries man. Just let us know how we can help you. Call me if you need anything.
Posted by: Ninja McFear 
at September 24, 2007 6:43 PM
That's really fucked, the lying even more than the cheating IMO... At least every thing's out though, man, and you can work toward the future...
Posted by: Geoff at September 27, 2007 7:30 PM
I'm totally cool with it at this point man, her actions did afford me the moral high ground in all of this. Yeah it hurts like hell, but I can walk away knowing I did my best and I tried to do right by her, but she did not. Now she can go off and be young and hedonistic and I never have to worry or care about her again. It is liberating.
Posted by: Vilhelm at September 28, 2007 9:32 AM
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