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August 21, 2009
A Peak into Kevin's Mind
Normally this isn't something that I would share with people, but it's something that I kinda wanted to get out there. You guys have known me for a long time, and you know as well as anyone who knows me that I am very mysterious by nature. Therefore, I take some effort to not allow people into my head. I have a lot of secrets to hold, both my own and many of other people's. Anyhow, there is something that I wanted to divulge to whoever is willing to listen.
At some point over the last several years you have been to my house and know that I own several small hamsters. The reason I have hamsters is mostly because both my brother and I had one as a child, that coupled with my and my dad's cat allergies and my parents dislike of dogs, I really had no other choice. I suppose I wanted to relive my childhood a little and purchased two small hamsters several years ago. One died about six months after I got her, but then I got another companion for the remaining hamster. Unfortunately, she died the other night, and I believe she may have suffered a little by my hand. Let me explain...
For anyone who has owned small rodents, there is a disease known as wet tail that can be brought on by a number of factors. Like cancer, it is often fatal if not caught and treated in time. I had noticed a change in her behavior sometime last week, but didn't really put it together that she may have been sick and I let it pass as nothing. She became increasingly lethargic as the days passed, and yet I did nothing. Her suffering finally ended last night, and I feel that I may have played a large part in it, mostly that I did nothing to alleviate her condition. There were actions I could have taken, yet I still did nothing. The worst part of this is that I am only realizing this now, but I suppose that is when everyone makes these types of revelations.
Anyhow, I just really wanted to share that with anyone who will listen. I remember when I was a child and I lost a pet that I was supremely upset for several days, possibly even weeks. I thought that now I am older that I would be able to deal with it better, but I still find myself upset by the whole ordeal. Is that childish? I suppose you do get attached to those little critters after this long.
That's your trip through the mind of Kevin. Try not to get lost on your way out.
Hot or Not coming.
R.I.P. Phoebe
Posted by Ninja McFear at August 21, 2009 11:37 PM
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R.I.P. Phoebe
First, Kev, I'm so sorry to hear one of your hamsters died.
I also have a couple of thoughts, not that you asked for them.
One, it doesn't seem childish in the slightest. My cat Tuloose died a few years ago and I cried and cried. I still miss him sometimes. It's natural to become attached to your pets. They're there with you all time time, you learn their different personalities. I know I talk to my cats. They can be a real comfort. Mourning them is only natural.
Two, I would try not to bee to hard on yourself for not taking action faster. There's a big difference between an honest mistake and intentional neglect. You didn't know that Phoebe was seriously ill, and animals to get colds now and then, so thinking it was something that would pass is normal. Try not to beat yourself up. Animals so get sick, but that's not your fault.
I hope you feel better man.
-Geoff
P.S. Still looking forward to Hot or Not.
Posted by: Geoff 
at August 22, 2009 7:28 PM
Thanks Geoff. The hardest part is watching the other one alone in the cage. Every once in a while she'll move about the cage looking for the other hamster, only to have to give up in vain. Then she'll hole herself in the little house for hours upon hours. They really depended on each other for a lot of things; their relationship was probably much deeper than I can comprehend. This is the second time this has happened to the hamster I have left, and it breaks my heart to have to see her go through it again. She has seemed to have adjusted pretty well already, I just try to make sure I take her out of the cage and play with her a little everyday so she knows that I'm still around.
Death is the most natural part of life, but it's the most difficult thing to get over and move on. Glad to see you didn't get lost.
Hot or Not coming SOON (Like, in a few minutes)
Posted by: Ninja McFear at August 23, 2009 12:03 AM
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